Perplexed

Perplexed




Ok, so I’ve been on a mission to establish a meaningful friendship with Mr. Crush and I have come to observe that someone else has infiltrated my being. I’m not quite sure how to explain his presence, but he’s here…and I am not kicking him out, at least not yet.

I haven’t taken this distraction seriously, but after a few moments of reflection, it has come to me that I may actually be caught up and liking his presence. [Although I’m not Catholic, I Cross my heart and kiss my imaginary rosary now as I write this.] I have this unrelenting faith that Mr. Crush and I will overcome scheduling conflicts, pride, egos and let love in. So why allow a distraction to cloud my thoughts?

Only time will tell how these two tales will evolve, for now my heart continues to be wrapped up in Mr. Crush. I have been honest and open with the distraction about the existence of Mr. Crush.

I suppose I am the most perplexed with the notion that I may be blind-sided by someone else who will sweep me off my feet – not who I planned but who I need to have  WHOA!!

In Denial,
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Do You Like Me?

Do You Like Me?

This piece is inspired by the simple way in which children decipher if someone is mutually “Crushed Out”.

…:::Method:::…

1.Write Note

Do you like me?

Yes □

No □

2. Fold paper and pass to person in close proximity to target, ask them to pass it to Crush.

3. Crush reads note and responds. Note makes reverse journey. You receive answer, good or bad and the rest they say is history.

…:::Flash Forward:::…

In adulthood we often complicate things. Egos come into play, and past relationship successes and failures dictate how relationships blossom. Love is not formulaic nor is it bolstered by ego. It is free flowing and is only successful when couples respect that fact. When we infiltrate the natural feelings that love brings about,with analytical wonderings, we taint the natural experience that would have ensued had we just appeased nature.

…::::Confession:::…

After weeks of self torture, I have made peace with my past, my present and my future. As if that is not cliché enough, I am ready to embrace everything that love has to offer me. I have decided to put away my pretension, reservation and everything else getting in the way of my happiness.

So far my over processing the situation has only caused me insomnia, loss of appetite, loss of focus, misdirection (I literally drove the wrong way down a one way street) and hours of contemplation…I’m done. I’m so gone and that’s ok with me...hope he checks the "yes" box.

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What's it Gonna Be?

Over the past year I have conversed with a male friend regarding the state of his marital status. Before you go there and assume that he and I are flowers blooming in a love garden, let me make it clear that it ain't that type of party. We are miles apart and content with being platonic. (Yes such relationships do exist.) Anyway, his parents make it a point to sit him down and discuss the state of his romantic affairs on a regular basis.


He finished school and by their calendar, he should be moving on to the next step of marriage, followed closely by children. Our cynicism has fueled our friendship - as the notion of all of the fore-mentioned makes him want to pack the lighest and most essential of his personal effects and head for the hills.


With a promising career and plans to step into the real-estate market, his goals, like many of our peers are predominantly financial. With so much emphasis on work, (many of us even pulling double duty with two jobs), there is very little time for dating, let alone establishing a meaningful relationship. Relationships take time. Time is money.


That brings me to the question; if you had to choose between working extra hours to meet certain personal goals (other than romantic), would you be willing to place your love life on hold in order to achieve your financial goals?


As a cynic, I see it as an issue of LOVE vs. MONEY. It is obvious that when one is abundant, the other is lacking.


[Of course there are exceptions to this rule, and I am in no way implying that someone with love cannot have money and vice versa. I am however stating that if you are trying to establish yourself and garner love while trying to obtain money, your love may not be yielding to the limited time in which you have to share.]



What's it gonna be? Love or Money$ ?

Getting Money ~ Miss Educated

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